It was perfect
Now it's awful



Life in the Fastlane...



GOODBYE
Wednesday, Jul. 07, 2004 @ 12:02 p.m.
Goodbye Diaryland, I am going to stop useing this journal and move over to my LiveJournal because I am never able to update which is annoying when I am in a hurry. I am going to keep this journal aswell just not use it. the only thing I regret is LJ doesn't have custom layouts like DL

I GUARED! (barfed , yacked, blew chunks... ect)
Friday, Jun. 18, 2004 @ 9:32 p.m.
eww, Today I went to the fair with Christine in P-town. I was really excited because hanging out with her is always a party. but at the fair we went on the gravition( that thing that spins really fast and pushes you agaisnt the wall) the first time we went on I was fine I didn't get dizzy or anything. then we went on again I I felt a little dizzy, they had to stop the ride because a little girl was freaking out. then me and christine were really hot so we got off to we sat outside for a minute I felt kinda sick but I figured It would get better and I didn't want spoil the fun for christine so we went back on. when the ride slowed down and we got up to get off I started to get that feeling you get before you barf, then right after we got outside I told christine I was gonna barf and we sat down next to the ride and I did. I was funny because people walked past and they we like "ha ha" "shes barfing" wow I hadn't noticed.

not so parttaaayyy!
Wednesday, Jun. 09, 2004 @ 11:07 p.m.
Omg DL is letting me add an entry, its been really bad about that, the page that says to refresh because the servers are busy allways comes up.

anyway today was the 8th grade pool party, it was very boring becuase it was put on by the school and the parents (we had 3 life guards) we weren't allowed to do anything fun. for lunch me laura and katie went to kaites house becuase the party was at the baywood pool by her house, we made grilled cheese for me and katie because she is a veggitatian and they had burgers at the party. then laura and katie were talking about how they liked burnt cheese and I said to just cook the cheese in the grilled cheese maker she had (it was so cool its like a waffle iron for sandwiches) so they did and we made cheese chips, when the cheese melted it made pools of fat wich we soaked up with a turkey baster, durring this prosess Katie aunt called and laura picked up the phone because she thought it was her mom and yeah it was funny cuz katie told her we were burning cheese and sucking it up... yeah... then we tried to make homemade frapcinos(can't spell) we made them in the blender but when we tried to take is off the base to pour it katie un-screwed the wrong thing and the bottom came open and it leaked everywhere..oops...the actually pool party was quite unevent full though.

8th grade kidnap breakfast
Monday, Jun. 07, 2004 @ 7:59 p.m.
La la la la la la la la la la.... anyway today at school we had to pratice for graduation it was funny because our french teacher has a french acent and she has to read all our names for our dipolmas(can't spell it) and Mr. demian said "Mrs. Fortier your gonna want to pratice pronoucing those names" she was glaring at him. all the teachers hate him so much, the whole rest of practice Phil was making fun of her. I am so glad I have a normal middle name I feel bad for some people at our school, Dom's middle name is edward...BWHAHAHA! EDWARD! I don't know why its so funny but it is! Charles' name isn't Charles either it something else that I don't remember anyway me phil and dom entertained our selves by making fun of everyones names. then to day was the 'kiddnap breakfast' which means the parents take us to a park for breakfast. they decorated all the cars and we drove to memorial park. I was in Ryans car i don't think he hates me that much still. he and phil we trying to make us eat those vomit and sardine flavored harry potter beans, then down butterfield we opened all the windows and the sunroof and some people stuck their heads out the sun roof and the others like me sat on the door part where the windows were and held on to the roof and phil sat on the roof and we were sreaming our heads off we got so stange looks....

Some good mostly bad 8th grade is over!
Saturday, Jun. 05, 2004 @ 9:17 p.m.
feel horrible, which is pretty bad since today was my last day of school and after the 8th grade had a huge party, but I feel really bad.

why am I so dumb that when ever i am friends with a guy its allways just becuase we beat eachother up. The party was really fun in the begging. it was just your average pool party tho nothing special. Adreien (or however its spelled) was wearing this skirt that was like 4 inches long, when she walked a round you could see her ass it was really gross. so I was talking with my friends and I was in a mean mood and someone said she looked like a hoe so I'm like "hey sould I tell her that?" everyone said yeah so I went over to her and asked "is that the shortest skirt you could find" "yes" "oh you look like a hoe *grining*" " I know you should see what I wear outside of school. I think I almost gagged it was so funny I dont think anyone thought I would do it. anyway some other funny things happend that I dont remember like Phil diving in the hot tub to try to grab Chrissy's Root Beer and in the process getting it spilled all over his head and in the tub. anyway things were fine untill the party started to die down it got to cold to swim so most of us changed into our clothes. Then a bunch or us (Will, Ross, Eric, Katie, Ryan and Me) got those noddles you swim with and started wacking eachother with them, it was really fun, Will and Ross would run at me and grab my feet and flip me over or just charge into me and knock me down befor I hit the ground it was fun It felt like flying. anyway the whole night Ryan who is normally my friend (okay so were more like enimies, I beat him up he beats me up but we don't hate eachother I asked him In D.C. and he said like he would hate me more if I didn't annoy him anyway) he was acting kinda strange, he wouldn't talk to me and he told me to go away every time I came near him. then when I talked to him he said he was just mad at the world and I was in the world, so I was like okay whatever. so when we were wacking eachother with noddles mine got stolen so I was throwing flip flops and people. and then I threw one at rayan and it hit him in his eye. Oh it was horrible I was like Oh SHIT! he was kinda cyring only tring not to. I told him I was really sorry and he could hit me with the noddle which he did really hard. then I swear he was gonna strangle me but I felt really bad because the whole night I was tring to be nice to him and told him that I wouldn't annoy him. then he just go up and left I wanted to go after him but I was gonna wait a bit but then he left. I just sat there for a while people beat me with sticks but finally I got so mad that he hadn't a least noticed I said I was sorry he didn't have to accept it but he didn't say anything I got really mad and started beating up the people attacking me with a noddle then while fighting I forgot about it but Eric I think or Ross knocked me over really hard and he steped on the back of my filp flop and I went flying I couldn't stop my fall and a landed on my wrist very hard now it is sprained. I guess It was Kinda karma because of what I did to Ryan but I still feel so terrible for it and I don't want him to remember me as a bitch.

Fairs and movies
Sunday, May. 30, 2004 @ 3:26 p.m.
I had a busy weekend so far, on friday we didn't have school so I shadowed a MSAT.I only stayed for two classes but it seemed nice. durring science one group of people had to build and airplane while the rest had to clean the room. a few kids who weren't doin anything took the knifes we were useing for the airplanes and went in to the supply room that has old wooden walls and they were trowing the knifes at the wall, they hit the wall so hard that the clock fell of on the side we were on and and it fell right off the wall and the teacher was just like, what was that?

Is my futre really this dull
Sunday, May. 30, 2004 @ 3:23 p.m.
In spanish we have to write about how we see out future and I did mine in english first and I tought I would put it up.

My name is Maya, I am from San Rafael. I am a little lazy and shy. But in the future I am going to try to be more confident. I like to go to parties, travel, hang out with my friends, go to movies, read books, and ride my horse.

I do not know what I want to be. I would like to write a book and be an actress or have a good job. I would Love to be famous

In my future I am going to study at a university of Davis of Fresno state because they have very good programs and a horse stable. I would like to somewhere nice like harvard of yale but I dont know if thats possible.

I would like to live in a large two story house with about 5-7 aches of land. I want to have a pool and live close to a town. I want to live near my friends and have nice neighbors. I would like to live in California.

I will have a boyfriend who is smart, funny, and nice. I am going to have a dog and possible two horses. We are not going to have children.

In my free time I am going to travel, have parties, spend time with my friends, ride my horse and swim in my pool.

Dinner Dance
Sunday, May. 23, 2004 @ 12:20 a.m.
Tonight my school had a dinner dance for the graduating 8th grade, I thought it would be really lame on account of the fact that the parents were their and no one would want to dance in front of them. It wasn’t that bad though even though the DJ sucked! Everyone danced even me (even thought I don’t know how). My friends and I formed a big circle and trapped people in it. Also there were a lot of balloons which means of helium, so everyone sounded pretty funny! We used the strings of the popped balloons to make a rope and followed the tradition of taping Natasha to her dance partner (this year it was Jamie last year a Zach’s we dedicated a song to her and Lloyd and ducked taped them together). I dance with a total of 1 guy. Aren’t I the popular one? I don’t know why I danced with him( Sandor) on account of he always makes fun of me. I also tried to force Ryan to dance with me which worked twice. Stupid Charles wouldn’t dance with me(it’s a tradition to try to get him to dance to! ) but he did give me a hug or more like I hugged him. It was kind of sad knowing it’s our last dance with those people. During the last song (friends forever) I went around and said goodbye to people even though we still have 2more weeks of school and then Graduation. Also I did get a hug from Dom, not a dance because well I never asked and he was always with some one, but a hug is something.

As we go on,

We remember,

All the times we,

Had together,

And as our lives change,

From whatever,

We will still be

Friends Forever...

....
Friday, May. 14, 2004 @ 10:37 p.m.
will write later i have something to say really!

arts in action
Thursday, May. 13, 2004 @ 10:04 p.m.
Tonight was arts in action at school which means the art we did get put up at school so our parents can look at it, we also get to sing yay(not). This year it was not as bad as I thought it would be. While we were waiting to go on to sing the 8th girls were playing charades which had some interesting highlights (even if it was a tad perverted)

At the end of our performance the whole middle school had to sing a song called stepping out, and one part in the song is out “with my baby” and koonie was saying “I’ll kill you family” it was so funny and none of the teachers noticed. After the singing me and Carolyn :iconhentai-mushu: stood by the food seeing what types of food bounce. (did you know some that cheese bounces and others don’t….well now you do) then after that got boring we ran around the school frolicking and screaming HUZZAH!

Did I forget anything? Oh yah Dom is really hot… I still think I am forgetting something but Dom is an ass.. that’s not it I know I forgot something…

okay lets regroup (games rally)
Thursday, Apr. 22, 2004 @ 8:57 p.m.
A few things happend this week not to much on friday and saturday we went up to the games rally( see previous entry) it was so much fun our hotel had a spa so we went swimimg at night them chris' family came to the hotel we (me, ari, angie,) were staying at. we had realy yummy diner and we wanted to play pool but ari's mom went up to the hotel with ari and angie but me and chris stayed and played pool, I won but then I missed the 8 ball DAM!

Then the rally was tons of fun only it rained so we rode in the rain and we won every single race! and won the rally go us!

hmmm what else,

oh right to day was earth day I slept over at Kts with laura we watched our lips are sealed (lol) it was fun the we stayed up till 1:30 playing PS, props and westling.

earth day was borring though

Are wa Unagi desu ka

is that a eel? (or similar in japaness)

David taught me that! GO ME I know 5 words in japaness!

games, trampoline, pizza, and pool
Wednesday, Apr. 14, 2004 @ 10:27 p.m.
yesterday I went up to lodi for a mounted games pratice because the rally is this saturday, it was really fun I spent alot of time racing chris (I won every time o'course) then after my chris and Ari went on the trampoline and Chris kept triping me and making me fall while Nick his very annoying brother attacked Ari, then I decide I didn't want to fall anymore and tackled Chris then after a bit of that we ganged up on Ari. Then we went to have pizza and there was a pool table so me and chris played only I didn't know how it was so funny the first time I didn't hit anything on my first 3 turns, then we made up and new name for the chalk you put on the pool stick things, it is now called blue crap. then after dinner we played again and it took us 6 six tries to sucessfully break the balls and have at least one go into the pocket, (as you can see I am not good at this game but it is still alot of fun!) anyway In all it was alot of fun, on saturday I have the rally so today I am very busy getting ready so I better go now

You don't know what you got till its gone
Monday, Apr. 05, 2004 @ 9:54 p.m.

Why is it that when one thing goes wrong everything eles does too?

I have been riding since I was 5 the whole time I have ridden buddy and 13.2 mix pony who belonged to my mothers friends daughter living down the road. Claire his owner had out grown him and gave me lesson once I got better at riding I was allowed to take him to my house where he lived for awhile then my mother decided I need a bigger horse so I got Tiaa (her life is a different story) she got lame so we browed buddy again a year after that we qualified for National mounted games in Kentucky I was about 11 I think. We went all the way to Kentucky with him it was the funniest thing I have done. I competed in many horse shows always wining various prizes my wall is covered in ribbons won buy him. Lets just say I have done every horse sport you can think of from dressage to barrel racing. I had begun to feel like I owned him after having him for that long. A bout 5 months ago his owners called and said they wanted to sell him. They wanted 10,000 for him and we doubted they would get that after all he is 16. they would sell him to us for 5,000 anyway we offered them 4,000 dollars but they wont take it, why I don’t know its not like they need the money. So we just let that sit no one inquired about buying him and I had a blast with him. Then I guess a week ago they called my mom (who never told me) that Claire wanted to give him to her cousin in Minnesota. Tell me how that’s fair?

We have had this pony for over7 years when I was 7 they wouldn’t sell it at all because they were “too attached to it” then once I out grow him its “ oh we think will sell him now” and then “oh lets give him to some kid living across the country for free”.

I will never see him again I don’t know what I will be like not having him around as I never have not had him. He is the only reason I am still riding I feel safe on him with other horses I always think I am going to push them to hard or not enough, but I know exactly how much work I can give buddy before he gets tired. Everything reminds me of him. I can’t let him go. I wont let them take him, I’ll run away or something. I don’t care if he is to small for me to ride I love him and can’t live without him.

I have done so many things with him he is such a part of me. All of my friends know how much I love him. I have had so many good time. I can’t begin to name all of them.

There are so many things I wont be able to do with out crying I can never see a young kid having fun on a horse with out being torn up inside. The song lean on me will always make be bawl I allways used to take his being there for granted I never forsaw a time when he was gone. I didn't realize how lucky I was to have a horse like him. “ you don’t know what you got till its gone”

I used to want to be just like Claire when I was younger I looked up to her I thought she was the coolest and nicest person in the world, I remember I wanted to write a book and I would dedicate it to her for teaching me how to ride and letting me use buddy. I hoped that when I grew up I could be just like her. She was my idol everything I had hoped to be. But now well that’s not how I want to be anymore.

Buddys is gone now and I can believe it. It doesn't seem true, but something in my life seemes missing.

at least I had a good time with him at games pratice this weekend before buddy left with Chris remmy & Max it was very fun.

Buddy was the best pony ever and I will always remember him and he will have a special place in my heart! <3

washington DC
Wednesday, Mar. 17, 2004 @ 3:47 p.m.
i am leaving for washington DC tommarow at 2:00 AM!! why the fuck it it so early, I still have to pack...oops....I am going with my school which might be fun except Ryan and Nick just came up with a craptastiacal nickname for me to go with 'legolas' i now go by 'brestfeeding gerbils' 'and another one that has something to do with lizzards. if your wondering how the hell they came up with this you are NOT alone! I think it originates from nick making my class future to buy petco wtf I don't want petco! DIE NICK!

cavalia
Friday, Mar. 05, 2004 @ 11:28 p.m.
okay so I got back from cavalia which I thought was gonna be really dumb.

It actually was pretty cool, who can complain about watching hot guys with nice tans and alot of muscles ride horses and do flips without shirts for about 2 1/2 hours?

some out the stunts were cool when the people were rideing 2 horses at once they we able to jump and one guy had them raise it to like 5ft and the guy went to jump it and the horse went under and he did a flip over.

old school MONKEY
Wednesday, Mar. 03, 2004 @ 9:58 p.m.
oh my gosh! I miss my old life and school so much things were so much fun there so carefree I regret that I didn't enjoy it while I could and now its over! I miss playling 'ruby' (or our version which was main;y tackle eachother as hard as you can to get the ball to and take it to the other end!)

i mis just haning out and talking and I miss everything I miss hendy woods and I miss bryan-the monkey(lol) jonny, kathryn, emily, gigi, max, wille, jared, anna, lauren, kevin, jude, and everyone else, i miss all the funny things and oh I miss it so much! I wish my life could have stayed like that forever!

somwday I am gonna go back though all thoes journals and take out the fun moments and archive them here but it has to be when I am in a mood to cry :(

I remember at hendywoods Bryan had to share a tent with us and we put someones bra in his pillow and we hid his stuffed monkey in his sleeping bag and he came in and was like "WHERE IS MY MONKEY" for 10 minutes untill kathryn said "bryan look in your sleeping bag" he got so mad then we told him too look in his pillow and he pulled out the bra it was so funny!

Ocars
Sunday, Feb. 29, 2004 @ 10:57 p.m.
11 wins tonight is not only are amazing and worth congratulating everyone. And that that puts them up there with Titanic and Ben Hur, but I just discovered something while browsing around the Web...LOTR now holds the record for a series in Oscar nominations at 30! More than the 28 The Godfather has, or the 21 the Star Wars franchise has garnered.

YEAH! GO LOTR THE KING OF THE OCARS!

there nobody left in new zeland to thank and people are moving to New Zeland just to be thanked!

I think Jonny Deep really deserved best actor not stupid mystic river!

and lotr should have gotten some best actor nominations a least with all the other things it won!

its the first fantasy film to ever win wish!

HUZZAH!

I'm sorry you've got gay! WAHHHHHHH!!!
Friday, Feb. 27, 2004 @ 11:12 p.m.
there is goning to be a lot of speeling errors in this because i am in a big hurry!

Today in science we were talking about heriditary genes and traits and someone asked if homosexualitly was heriditary, which its not, then a bit later after we had learned that Viruses are not herditary either Nick asked/said "so then is homosexualitly like a virus?" it was so funny, he didn;t even realize the mistake he made. Phil, kunnie, and ryan who all site near me bursted out laughing we were in hysterics and phil says "i am sorry...you got GAY!" and then we lost it there was no hope, but phil continued I swear that kid it the funnist thing i have seen, "i wonder what the simptoms are?" "a love of pink,..and tringles." "I'm sorry we regret to inform you you have a virus called QUEER" oh my, it doesn;t sound funni now but then It was funny as shit

also today the new gym at our school opened and they had a faculty vs. high school basketball game, (teachers won) me and liz decieded that our goal was to lose our voice from screaming, so we screamed the WHOLE time, the Adam who was siting in front of us told us to shut up so we waited a few secondes then we leaned right next to his ears and screamed as loud as we could! acctually we did that like 5 times!!

it was funni shit! we also yelled random things like "GOAL" & "HUZZAH" & "BIF" and did the we will rock you chant/stompy thing! and its an on going joke in our grade to make fun of Mrs. robly because she from texas and nick made a big sign that said GO TEXAS!!!! and PORK! on the back and he had a cowbell too funny funny!

I WANT TO DIE!
Thursday, Feb. 26, 2004 @ 9:09 p.m.
how many time are my friends gonna disapoint me and not fall through!

after a while it get tiring and old. the first few times its okay you figure "oh well whatever next time" then the next time you say the same thing.

I just....I don't know you see movies where the people are grate firends there at eachothers house every night, the on the phone togeter all the time, they know everything about eachother, they share everything, and know what eachother are feeling...

what i wouldn't do for a firend like that............

no of my firends are ever there for me, if Im upset they just throw they little problems in my face or laugh becuase they think I'm kidding!

I really like mounted games in pony club, and I was dreaming about qualifying for ky national like i did 3 years ago, I had it all planed out, me and my 'friend' set up a great team it was perfect we were headed straight to the blue ribbion. but tonight my firend turned that all hopeless.

she can't go to games she informed me over an IM,; what thats all I get I work hard and o sorry i can't go. Thats it I never am gonna try hard again I gonna fail school the year and I dont give a SHIT!!! riding thats over too, its not fun, im not getting any better, its dead. the only reason christine can't go is because her family doesn't have money her dad is to sick. I know I should feel bad and I do but is it so wrong for me to be angry at her for just leaving me with "oh sorry all this glory and fun we have been talking about for 2 years now is over"

that just churshed me.

I have be dumped push down on steped on and left behind by so many of my firends and dragged my self back up and gone back to them so many times before I thought it was over... but christine, one of the few people I thought of as my firend, I never saw it comming.

So heres to broken and hopless dreams!

<3

I just wish I could disappere or go back to the happy carefree days of elementary, when horesback riding was cool and breaking a promise was a sin.

moving from petaluma was the biggest mistake ever, i traded all my old firends in for friends who don't give a shit about me

I just i could lay down and die sometimes the happyness of my life is spent now can i go...

and Dom he's so hot but NOOO he's rachels..ughh don't let me start!

coke and kicks
Wednesday, Feb. 25, 2004 @ 10:44 p.m.
okay quickie,

today at the end on school I had a cherry coke to give to laura (i dont like carbonated bevrages) and I was standing by her locker waiting for her to be ready and and harrison and phil kept trying to steal it so I kept kicking them and we got into a huge ass fight, thankfully it was in the corner of the school so no one saw!

the fight ended when I opened the shaken coke and sprayed it all ovver them and gave them each a massive kick!

the moral Kicking fixes every thing

Quote of the entry: most things work better when I kick them~Spike (after kicking his ship)

LINKIN PARK CONCERT!
Thursday, Feb. 19, 2004 @ 1:51 p.m.
okay so yesterday I went to the linknin park concert in sacramento, the one with story of the year, hoobastank, and P.O.D. the concert was sold out completly.

It was so fuckin awesome!!!!!

BOOYAKA!

anyway we had really bad seats they were the last row (section 202 T 13, 14, 15) but those seats didn't exist so we got to move down to the boxes wich wass hella awesome! ( even if it was really close)

the concert started at 7 with story of the year they we prety good.

then of couse we were supposed to "light em if you gottem" and they didn't think people had enought so they waited a bit and said they wouldn't play unless more people lit lights, candels and cell phones.

then one guy lit somthing that was a huge flame and the Dan(band vocals, methinks) goes " hey that guys go a fucking blowtorch"then they started.

Hoobastank sang the beging of "girls just wanna have fun" I think it may have been the funnyist thing I have ever heard! dan(vocals) voice was so high and sounded very wierd after hearing him screaming and stuff.

then of course linkin Park kicked ass! they played hmm 12-16-alot of songs including crawlin and in-the-end (2 of my favs) then in a encore the played my december and another song with p.o.d.! It was awesome!

and anyone else who might have went if as you were leaving arco stadium and you hear HUZZAH! i swear I wasn't me :D !

tony!
Tuesday, Feb. 17, 2004 @ 10:37 p.m.
whoooooooot today was fun!

I went to christines house and we called this guy named anthony, and we pissed him off, we also told gave him stefans address when he watted christines, then I gave him a really bad picture of christine and he saw on of me on the same webbsite and he thinks I am "fine" lmfao! isn't that great! he's relly ugly tho!

Happy V-day!!
Saturday, Feb. 14, 2004 @ 11:43 a.m.
Happy Valentines day!




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be my valentine!
Friday, Feb. 13, 2004 @ 9:32 p.m.
yay! tommarows valentines day whoopde doo!! I care!

today at school me and carolyn asked all the gus in our class to be our valentine (only 4 said yes out of like 10 [a bunch weren't there or wern't asked because we despise them!]) haha were such rejects!

anway happy almost v-day expect pictureriffic post 2marrow

POTC in French
Thursday, Feb. 12, 2004 @ 10:18 p.m.
just a quick note about today I'll talk about science camp later!

today durring advisory we had a party cept are asvisor was not there because she was sick! we had a 6 foot long subway sandwich and after some people left I found POTC just laying there so we put it in...

then Natasha goes "whoa was that in spanish?" but we decide it wasn't then It started and elizabeth was singing "yo ho yo ho (insert other language here" and we were all kinda looking at eachother like wtf? turns out it was french (DUH) because we were in the french room but it was so funny!

happy cooming v-day

off the hell ...oops I mean science camp
Saturday, Jan. 31, 2004 @ 11:18 p.m.
well its off to yosemite for a week come monday!

some stupid 8th grade camp to get us 'in touch' with nature

so that means I shall be deprived of my lovely computer for a whole week I don't know how I will live!!

LOTR won the golden globe for best drama movie!!!!!
Sunday, Jan. 25, 2004 @ 10:56 p.m.
LOTR won the golden globe for best drama movie!!!!!

YAY!!! omg its so fucking awesome it better win best picture in the oscars too!

Pier 39
Saturday, Jan. 24, 2004 @ 9:20 p.m.
hmmm not much to say of late...

cept yesterday me Katie and Laura went to pier 39 and 'hung out' and oh course went on the marry-go-round.

we ate at hard rock cafe because it rocks! (lol hard ROCK cafe..*chrip chirp*) anyway I am gonna stop because my head is pounding becuase I think I am sickesh now,,,yay!

HUZZAH!

ME ME ME!
Tuesday, Jan. 20, 2004 @ 9:07 p.m.
I don't know what to do!

I hate my life!!!!

I don't know what I want!

I just wanna be happy and carefree!

I miss living in petaluma!

I want a nice webstie!

not my current crapy one

wow I'm gredy huh! that whole thing was all me me I want wahhh!!

gezz I need a life!

layouts,,,
Tuesday, Jan. 20, 2004 @ 5:50 p.m.
****************EDIT****************** okay so thats not what I endend up doing because Iframes didn't like my background so I am gonna host it a DL is my Image thing will have enough storrage crap

I figured out how I am gonna rid my website!

I am gonna have a fan page for each of my main obbsesions!

I don't know when I'll will get around to it and I am still think about it but its almost for sure!

HAPPY BITHDAY ORLANDO!!
Tuesday, Jan. 13, 2004 @ 9:52 p.m.

image (c)new line cinema

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(i am super paranoid about copyright shit now) (don't sue me ppl its not like anyone reads this)

rotk 5th time!
Sunday, Jan. 11, 2004 @ 6:57 p.m.
went to see ROTk with my friend who is a bit stupid she talked durring the whole movie, she hasen't even seen TTT...

as the hobbits aproach mt. doom
gabby(my firend):where are they going
me: mt doom
gabby: wheres that?
Me:that big ass volcano
gabby: why
me: to destory the ring
gabby: why?
Me: stares at her like she is crazy (which she is)
me: because thats the whole godamm fucking point of the mooooovie!
gabby: o...
me: yeah

I wanna be star star star.........
Sunday, Jan. 04, 2004 @ 11:34 p.m.
you know who I am relly jelous of?

no you don't

I am so jelous od Keria knighty (spl?)_elizabeth in POTC and Liv tyler_arwen

yeah I know I hate liv but she got to spend three years with 4 of the hotest guys ever (viggo, orlando, billy boyd, elijha (how the fuck do you spell it)

that would be so much fun! its insanely unfair!!!!!

same with keria she get to be with jonny deep and orlando bloom! and kiss one of them and flirt with the other

not fair

okay thats it I have picked what I am gonna be an atctress

what , you say I can't act, oh thats okay I don't mind! nither can Liv,

oh wait I'm not pretty, nope nither is Liv.......

*thoughts drift into how hot jack aragorn and legolas are*

rotk w/ Gigi
Saturday, Jan. 03, 2004 @ 3:44 p.m.
OOOoooo I forgot!

yesterday I went to see rotk again (4th time) I went with my old friend Gigi from my old school

she actually likes arwen(ew..)

but then she hates galadrieal. she relly didn't like some parts like when denethor sets him self on fire (my favortie part) Pippin is so cute I love him *cuddle* awwww I love his song to

animated lotr
Saturday, Jan. 03, 2004 @ 3:39 p.m.
its a usuall boring saturday for me!

my firend is comming back from tahoe today after bring snowed in.

I don't want to go back to school! I only have two more days and then its back to that evil place!!!! NOOOOO!!!

been watching lotr animated version its so stupid and inaccurate! but I'm that bored!

QUOTES ON ARWENS EVILNESS!
Wednesday, Dec. 31, 2003 @ 7:12 p.m.
I really disliked the mysterious sickness, and popping out from behind a banner like the lady sawed in half, ta-da, and the big smooch at the end. Can you imagine Tolkien's Aragorn and Arwen doing tongues in full view of all their subjects? Never!

I doubt whether anyone would think that Aragorn needs the extra encouragement of Arwen dying to defeat Sauron.
Maybe it's supposed to go something like:

Aragorn:

Dominating Middle-Earth I can stand.
Killing my friends... -fair enough.
Destroying my kingdom, my people and my city,- that's forgiveable I suppose.
But now you're hurting my girlfriend?- Say your prayers, sucker!!"

Right . WTF!

I don't get it everyone thinks Liv Tyler is so pretty and junk but I don't in my opnion she looks like a rabbit, her role just bothed me! urhg! Her charecter is to well corny all her lines are relly sappy in a BAD way! I actually Like arwen in FOTR but then she changed from but-kicking elf to sappy lovey-dovey mortal I don't get that!
anyway I don't like the way Live tyler was Arwen in TTT or ROTK!!!!
In my Opinion neiter roles are very true too the book but I try to keep movie and book sperate now becuause they are so close but I get Kinda Hypocrtical there!

I HAVE NO FIRENDS
Wednesday, Dec. 31, 2003 @ 3:28 p.m.
oh my gosh! I can't belive vaction is almost over allready! it seems like yesterday i finished finals! I don't wanna go back to that horrible place where all my friends ignore me.....but wait thats what happens here as well! no one has called my all break! I have done nothing fun cept for see lotr W/ katie and then Christine! omg my like suckx i have no firends at all! Gabby totaly blew me off today last night we planed to go se ROTK and now she has to go her firends partty!!!! WELL I HOPE SHE HAS A HORRIBLE TIME!!! BITCH!

argggh I am not even doing something for new years~

I HATE CHRISTMAS!
Thursday, Dec. 25, 2003 @ 12:57 p.m.
ahhh christmas! a time for cheer a time for family and a time to pretend that you like all the crappy gifts from relatives who think you are still 4 years younger then you relly are!!

in all this has been the worst christmas ever! I didn't get any persents I remotly like at all My mother just gave me a bunch of HIDEUOUS CLOTHES! they are so ugly the make my puke! GAH!

there was alot of things I relly wanted to!

I HATE CHRISTMAS you wait for it all year and then it comes so quick you don't know what you wanta get nothing!

rotk MOVIE VS.BOOK
Monday, Dec. 22, 2003 @ 11:14 a.m.
ROTK STUFF I thought the part when Denethor runs thorugh the halls on fire was hillarous at the end I was muttering "he's gonna jump" I loved that part when he just run straight off!

I agree with most of what people said arwen kinda ruined the movie for me (IMO she looks like a rabbit) I relly wish the hadn't made her so important. also what happened to the banner she made for aragorn that the dunidain brought? and is it just me or when aragorn comes out of the ships doesn't it mention star crowns? (its been awhile since i read the books though)

I hate aragons spech at his corination something like "this day does not belong tojust one man...." It just sounded corny comparing it to his "This day we fight" speach. the book line is ever so much better "by the labor and valor of many I have some to my inheritance. In token of this I would have Ring-bearer bring the crown to me, and let Mithrandir set it upon my head if he will for he has been the mover of all things that have been acomplished, and this is his victory"

ROTK BEST MOVIE EVER!
Saturday, Dec. 20, 2003 @ 11:06 a.m.
I finally got to see rotk last night it was so fuckin awesome!!! i actually cried at the end I am so sad its over I have to reason to live. Even though a lot of parts were taken out from the book it was great!!! I loved Aragorns "this day we FIGHT!" speach it was relly touching! also the end was... sweet... I am glad they kept the last line of gandalf that I love "here at at the shores of the sea come an end to the fellowship in middle earth, I will not say do not weep, for not a tears are an evil *SOB!!*

When I went I wore black fishnet and a fishnet cape and everyone was staring at me anf this one group of people in line kept looking at me I scremed at them "STOP STARING AT ME!" it was very funny!

tickets for my precious
Wednesday, Dec. 17, 2003 @ 9:50 p.m.
YAY I just go my tickets for the return of the king firday at 8:00 baby!1

still pissed about not being able to see ROTK
Monday, Dec. 15, 2003 @ 8:50 p.m.
ARRGGH I wanna go to trilogy tuesday soooooo bad!! but who would I go with none of my firends are obbsesive enough

someone on the barrowdowns shared my view:

*sob* "what do you fear?"

"A cage. To stay behind bars until all hope of seeing ROTK in theaters has long passed."


I love it so classic!!!

i did get a lotr shirt to wear to thepremmir I am gonna piss off my firends and be all "thats not how it happed" "no she's not supposed to die" "oh look watch (insert persons fav. charecter) is about to die"

hahahahahaha

|R|O|T|K| my anti exam
Sunday, Dec. 14, 2003 @ 6:54 p.m.
|R|O|T|K| my anti exam

YEAH WHOOT BABY!!!

I will still be happy on firday after failing all my exams just because of being able to final see it

I am studing my but off tonight it sucks I wanna read my new book!

its a part of the alanna series about her daughter, cept it says she's a only child, she's not is she?

...I am unloved
Wednesday, Dec. 10, 2003 @ 9:57 p.m.
I am depressed like all my firends have boyfirends I have never evern had a guy remotly like me! I feel so dejected! Gigi has a BF Christine has a BF! I don't I wish Dom liked my he is soooo fucking hot I would do anyting for that...or charles or even jake.... why don't people like me!

Rotk rant
Wednesday, Dec. 10, 2003 @ 9:42 p.m.
I want to go to the premire of the return of the king soooo badly but its right in the middle of semester Finals

so while everyone is watching the best movie of the year I will be craming and and sitting in smelly class rooms faling exams!!! Its not fair I tell you I want to go to the midnight premire and dress up and be crazy with other fans but I have no other fellow fans that are my firends!! I was invited to skip school and go with my bestest firend but noooooo I have finals!!!! I RELLY WANTED TO SEE IT TOOO!! FUCK SAN DOMINICO!!

call me call me
Wednesday, Dec. 10, 2003 @ 5:21 p.m.

mood: tired & bored

rockin to: call me call me

chatting with: Gina about ROTK

wating for: not wating to do hmwrk!

call me call me its the saddest song ever its from Cowboy bebop! it plays when Ed leaves I close my eyes and I keep seeing things:
Rainbow waterfalls,
Sunny liquid dreams.
Confusion creeps inside me rainin' down;
Got to get to you,
But I don't know how.

Call me, call me,
Let me know it's all right.
Call me, call me,
Don'cha think it's 'bout time?

Please won't you call and...

Ease my mind?
Reasons... for me to find you.
Peace of mind
What can I do...
...to get me to you?

I had your number quite some time ago,
Back when we were young,
But I had to go.
Ten thousand years I've searched it
seems and now,
Got to get to you,
Won't you tell me how?

Call me, call me,
Let me know you are there.
Call me, call me,
I wanna know you still care.

C'mon now won't you...

Ease my mind?
Reasons for me to find you
Peace of mind
What can I do...
...to get me to you?

C'mon now won't you...

EASE MY MIND?
REASONS FOR ME TO FIND YOU (For me to find...)
PEACE OF MIND (Ease...)
REASONS... FOR LIVING MY LIFE.

Ease my mind...
Reasons... for me to know you.
Peace of mind
What can I do...
...to get me to you?

I did too sing
Tuesday, Dec. 09, 2003 @ 4:24 p.m.
I have has 5 teachers come up to me and say that I didn't sing or something durring our concert rehersal!! WTF!!! I was so singing!!! and katie right next to me didn't get told anything!!! and she didn't sing at all by the last teach I was so upset!!! It made me deperssed all day!!!! because one of the teachers was my favortie

I hate crow & x-mas concert
Monday, Dec. 08, 2003 @ 10:22 p.m.
I HATE OUR TEACHER MRS. CALKINS!!!! (AKA. CROW)SHE IS SUCH A BITCH!!!!!!!!!!I HATE HER SHE DOESN'T GET THAT PEOPLE HAVE A LIFE EVEN IF SHE DOESN'T!!!!! THERES MORE TO LIFE THEN MASS!!!! I AM GONNA FAIL MATH BECUASE SHE IS SUCH A BAD TEACHER!!!!!! I AM DEAD SERIOUS I WANT TO KILL HER(but that would be considered murder)NOW SOME OF MY ANGER IS OUT THAT FUCKIN BITCH

I have a recitle for x-mas at school tomarrow so we can't get homework!

yesterday I did my whole science project with lizzy it was relly fun!!! then we saw honey and i wore pink fuzzy slipers to the mall

ROTK december 17th
Friday, Dec. 05, 2003 @ 7:21 p.m.
some people are doing relly awsome things for the ROTK premire!

I am not gonna be able to go to premire night, because I have finals that week.

also I have no friends who are obsessed with lotr! but i am draging my friends to the movies on friday anyway!

I want to make a shirt with frodo lives or aragorns speach from the tralier if I have time and will paint my tonails with frodo lives but not at school beacause i am a very shy person, know one would get it and Its agaisnt the uniform!

mabye I wall hand out lotr adverts and put them all over the school!

and I love the Idea of putting frodo lives on the hp books

my dream was to go dress up to the premire but again finals and my lack of lotr fan friends has made this dream impossible

TIME: 7:14 december 5th
mood: tired & cold
rockin to: Grandma got run over by a reindeer
chatting with: I'm all alon theres noboy here beside me...
wating for: dinner!

POTC TOMARROW!
Monday, Dec. 01, 2003 @ 8:45 p.m.
Pirates of the caribean comes out tomarrow tommarow bet your bottom dollar the sun will come out tommarow tommarow, only a day away!......yup i have problems.....this is what boredem does to one!..beware

I HATE BEING SICK!
Sunday, Nov. 30, 2003 @ 8:21 p.m.
arggg I am so sick I just want to die!!!my stomac relly hurts and my head and my nrck and everytning, I have a relly bad fever and I can't see strait so if my typin is messed up thats why!

the weekend was going so good untill to day!

I went riding with katie, it was fun my dad forgot to pick us up so we went around the ranch climbing trees! I went to a PC party and then I went on a trail ride the next and all we did was gallop and we almost rode the horses to the ground because we were all haveing fun and they seemed fine...but the trail was ssooooo fun i rode topaz evie's horse and also my firends relly ugly horse for a little too! and now I am in so much pain ARRGH!!!!!!!!

COOL PIC!
Friday, Nov. 28, 2003 @ 1:43 p.m.
LOoK at my cool picture!

TURKEY DAY!
Thursday, Nov. 27, 2003 @ 11:40 a.m.
wowzers! its turkey day! I hate tanksgiving! its soooooo BORING!!

I have a big problem! well it not that big but its important. I have three fan-fic with begins and don't know how to end any of them!

1. what relly happend at the end of realfolk blues(the one where spike comes back!)[CBB]

2.the quest for the items that must be destroyed[LOTR]

3.around the campfire(blonde jokes)[LOTR]

I sat around for 4 hours doing nothing!
Thursday, Nov. 20, 2003 @ 10:24 p.m.
4 HOURS! I sat around for 4 hours doing nothing! after shool I went to the barn to ride (its on campus) alas I could not because I was wearing a skirt and I forgot riding pants... DO'H

So after putting away my horse I find My mother has lost the keys to her car! the fell inside the hood or someting. so I was there with nothing to do from 12:30 to 4:00!!!

arrgh My day has NOT been fun; but I did udate my wesite! go look!

SOCCER-??
Saturday, Nov. 15, 2003 @ 11:04 p.m.
Its late so I can't right mucho!

had a soccer game today we lost! 1-0 but we were playing the undefeated team! we are the colest to beating them all season! I am supposed to go to my firends house but I don't know if I am going I RELLY want to becuse my other friend is gonna be there who I haven't seen I like 8 months!

Okay I gotta go befor my parental units start yelling at me!

LAYOUTS AND OBBSESIONS
Thursday, Nov. 13, 2003 @ 9:29 p.m.
SHIT I just somehow deleted the entire thing I wrote! okay then just Ignore this entry! no use to you stuff for me!kk?

Obsessinos

cowboy Bebop
Lord of the rings
Zelda
Pirates of the caribean
Alanna

So my goal is to make layouts for all of these things by next firday!!!

I allready have made a POTC layout (in use on my webbie!)

THE END OF CBB NOOOO!
Wednesday, Nov. 12, 2003 @ 9:09 p.m.
NOOOOOOOOO!

I am sooooooo sad!

i just watched the last cowboy bebop and EVERYBODY DIES!!!

SPOILERS

its so sad!!!!

Everyone leaves the bebop! except for Jet and Faye comes back

julia dies then spike kills vicious and then he dies and then It just ends!

talk about a horible ending to a wonderfull series!!!

anyway i am pissed

I wish I had never seen the end!!!

*sniff*

THEY KILLED SPIKE

at the very end he is walking out of the sydicate and I was thinking 'yes thank god he is still alive" And then he just died! why couln't he have hung in there huh?

I MISS HIM

yup I am obsesing over a cartoon

but I LOVE SPIKE!!!

I HATE JULIA IF SHE HADN'T HAVE DIED AND TOLD SPIKE IT WAS ALL A DREAM AND CRAP HE WOULD STILL BE ALIVE

And throw you in the sea!
Wednesday, Nov. 12, 2003 @ 6:21 p.m.
" I am gonna cut your throught chop you yup and throw you in the sea!" Today at school Dom was yelling at someone cuz he was mad at them and right in the middle demian (our pricipal) came out behind him then Dom turned around and saw him and the look on his face was like oh shit! It was hella funny!

BRACES
Tuesday, Nov. 11, 2003 @ 7:43 a.m.
YAY I GET MY BRACES OFF TODAY

I really hope the people remember they said they would take them off! cuz I hate them and want them to go away I also have soccer practice today. I bet liz won't go tho!

****edit****he he my bad we didn't have soccer it was veterens day! but my studid school didn't have it off! but I am now BRACE FREE YAY!

elf
2003-11-08 @ 7:11 p.m.
its raining it pouring the old man is snoring! I love the rain! the movies ar efun when it rains. I saw the moive elf to day with my firend. it was good but we had to sit in the friont row!

STUPID CHELSEA
2003-11-07 @ 10:17 p.m.
URGHH I AM SO PISSED
theres this new girl at our school named Chelsea and everyone was kinda mean to her, so me katie and laura (my firends) we nice to her we thought she was nice till we realize she only liked Laura! she is a stuck up know-it-all brat (true some people are relly mean to her...)she is totaly tring to steal Laura. and the worst part is laura can't tell!!! Its like last year when we hated this one girl...at least she could take a hint!

H-O-T
2003-11-06 @ 4:00 p.m.
We have a nazi bus driver, at least thats what Dom vame up with... Of course hes very racist, HOT but racist..did i mention he was H-O-T

NEW LAYOUT!
2003-11-04 @ 5:39 p.m.
MUHAHAH I LOVE THIS NEW LAYOUT it is so great!

there both runnning...
2003-10-30 @ 5:31 p.m.
ARGG I still want to kill my bus driver same reason as yester day!

Does anyone watch cowboybebop?

well I was just watching it!

here is a funny scence:

Faye: thats easy we just shoot and see who high tails it outta there!

Spike: For once I agree with you\

Jet: NO did you consider-

*Spike and Faye start to shoot*

Jet:(contiued) DID YOU CONSIDER THE POSSIBLITLY THERE BOTH REAL!

spike: there both runnning...

(session #19: Wild horses)

HAHA LOVE THAT SHOW!!

Hey hey listin up ya'll
2003-10-29 @ 9:58 p.m.
Hey hey listin up ya'll.. dis mah buz and yu goutta du wut I say not dier bus...

The words of my bus driver...

translation, hey listin up everyone. this is my bus on you have to do what I say not thier bus [teachers, school. ect]

Yeah our bus diver is crazy no I do not wish to get hate mail or anything I am not racist I don't know what his accent is even from but he is impossible to understand..no?

yes todays topic.. the bus ride back to school not to funny but I want to adress the problem of dom... {can you say HOT?} yes Dom may be the hot but he is a racist bitch...funny but all his stories are fake none the less Funny... from today: This one year I went trick or treating with Phil and we went to this house and the lady asked us what we were, we said. " oh well we had masks but some teenages took them and beat us up and stole our candy." she said that was horible and dumped all her candy into our bag.:::

the way he said this in his accent {I love his accent, don't know what it is tho} made it even funnier!

FLUNKING!!
2003-10-27 @ 9:25 p.m.
I have the dumbest test in english tomarrow and a quiz in spanish that I didn't study for at all!!! OMG I a gonna flunk I have the worst grades this year!!

soccer
2003-10-25 @ 11:01 a.m.
I have soccer today and it gonna be in the 100's today temp wise and I have to run around and shit!

BOGGIE MAN!!
2003-10-24 @ 4:14 p.m.
This entry might not make sesnse just some things for reminding me about suff

I THINK THE WORLD WOULD BE A MUCH BETTER PLACE IF THOSE STUPID KIDS WOULD JUST GIVE THE RABBIT HIS TRIX

If youre paddling upstream in a canoe and a wheel falls off, how many pancakes fit in a doghouse? None! Icecream doesn't have bones!

I have not failed, I have merely found 10,000 ways that won't work

GO fiddle Your own head!

the older you are the better you are...unless you a banana!

The boggie man has a portal in mis ingersol room!! beware, beware!!!

Don't ask

(trust me you don't wanna know)

OK relly wanna know?

at school to day in math we were all relly hayper phil was and 'ariplane' he flew around the class 18 times then he crashed! then he was sliding around on the floor then the boggie man ate kaite!

borringg
2003-10-22 @ 10:24 p.m.
Not much to say about today just been boring I think there was something funny but I can't remember it! oh well!

don't worry were're straight
2003-10-21 @ 7:42 p.m.
hmm...another day another boring school day!!! not much to say about today except for in art today we were outside and the whole class was lying in a circle and the teacher was photgraphing our hands (wtf?) anyway this guy walked by and our teacher (mrs. faught) said "hi"to him and he look at us like we were crazy then a minute later phil turns and calls to him "don't worry were're straight" the guy almost ran away it was very funy

math & shirts and pants kinda look the same
2003-10-20 @ 4:12 p.m.
Today school was BORING but then its always like that!!!!
math class actually was not that bad it had a few funny moments!
We were learning ratios and percents (yes sad cuz I am in 8th grade but were reviewing) so we worked out the girl boy ratio and It turned out to be 72.72% so phil says "okay so whose 72 perecent Girl?" "jonnnn?"
I WAS SO FUNNY you would probally have to be there
also Our teacher said that the unit we were doing didn't belong in this chapter and the book writes just stuck it in there The phil said " oh so its like when you clean your room and you puting away clothes where they are supposed to go and you get lazy and say"ah well shirts kinda look like pants anyway" and put them all away togeter"
and agian you would have to be there!

Big red ball
2003-10-19 @ 6:16 p.m.
Today was pretty fun I did this Big red ball clinic with me horse the ball was bigger then my horse!
Yester day I had a soccer game...we lost :(
a new week of school is aproching and i havent done any homework yet, OOPS

my school
2003-10-17 @ 10:32 p.m.
my school is split in to 3 sections, all my friends are i one section leaving me all by myself with no one tp hang out wiht at all! you don't know how hard it is with all your friends all happy and talking about stuff that happed when you wernt there and then when you ask about it they tell you "oh you wern't there"
do they think I don't wnat to be in there section? do they think that I want to be alone and friendless? I guess so?!

we had a dance tonight and I stayed home becuase my firends wouldn't go with me and i would have felt stupid there all alone> they ditched me to go to go work on their project!!! I am relly pissed off right now!!!

1st entry
2003-10-17 @ 8:59 p.m.
HI this is my first entery in my diary
I go to San dominico school If you want to know all that stuff about me just click here
I was supposed to go to a dance to night but I didn't because my firends ditched me!!!



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